| Evanescence - "Give Unto Me"
I've been watching you from a distance
The distance sees through your disguise
All I want from you is your hurting
I want to heal you
I want to save you from the dark
Give unto me your troubles
I'll endure your suffering
Place onto me your burden
I'll drink your deadly poison
Why should I care if they hurt you
Somehow it matters more to me
Than if I were hurting myself
Save you (save you)
I'll save you
Give unto me your troubles
I'll endure your suffering
Place onto me your burden
I'll drink your deadly poison
Fear not the flame of my love's candle
Let it be the sun in your world of darkness
Give unto me all that frightens you
I'll have your nightmares for you
If you sleep soundly
Give unto me your troubles
I'll endure your suffering
Place onto me your burden
I'll drink your deadly poison
Fear not the flame of my love's candle
Let it be the sun in your world of darkness
Give unto me all that frightens you
I'll have your nightmares for you
If you sleep soundly
Fear not the flame of my love's candle
Let it be the sun in your world of darkness
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| so go figure laura hearing a song sends her off on a rant. once again i've heard that song, that song that couldn't fit more perfectly to how you feel then if you had wrote it yourself. after having gone and seen seether, three days grace, breaking benjamin, and skillet in concert i found myself wanting some of their music. while playing through some of seethers songs i found this song called "the gift" and looked up the lyrics and read along as i listened. so i'm sure that my interpretation of this song is probably different then what seether was going for but i think that i can see this being very accurate for how i feel. i see pain around me that i can't touch, or pain that i've caused and can't even imagine the immense extent of pain this pile has made on others let alone my creator. how could one so prefect love someone like me. i hate that i can't help but feel like a failure, that all i've done is caused other's pain, and well wasted perfectly good breathing air, money, space and time of others. over and over again i not only fail myself but those around me, and my reason of existence seems more and more faded everytime i think of it. i think truthfully it's just gotten to that point again where i'm bogged down with the question of what's next and why am i even here. don't worry i'm not planning on going off the deep end or doing anything to myself but man this game sucks...i guess my point of sharing this was to say thank you for those of you that have been "gifts" to me, to maybe show you where i currently stand, and maybe just to vent in hopes that if this is wrote down that maybe then it could escape the torment it's doing in my head. i'm afraid of the gifts i've received, your gifts of friendship, hugs, smiles, prayers, ect. and ultimately i'm afraid of the gift God has given me i don't deserve his love and i don't understand how he ever could love me but here i kneel and thank him for all the hugs he's given me along the way. continuously telling us that we are gifts- life's a gift- i'm learning to appreciate it. thank you and i love you! the music video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AkWGyKk83BQ the lyrics Hold me now I need to feel relief Like I never wanted anything
I suppose I'll let this go and find a reason I'll hold on to
I'm so ashamed of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to get by
I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all
I can't face myself when I wake up
And look inside a mirror
I'm so ashamed of that thing
I suppose I'll let it go
Until I have something more to say for me
I'm so afraid of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to defy
I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all
Hold me now I need to feel complete
Like I matter to the one I need
I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all
Now I'm ashamed of this
I am so ashamed of this
Now I'm so ashamed of me
I am so ashamed of me... |
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| http://www.freehugscampaign.org/index.php?categoryid=1 if ya ever need a hug my arms are always open! watch the video it's amazing! |
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